So anyway, this is a new spangly and, indubitably, irreligious, irreverent blog for my wonderful wanderings through this thing we call life and the faith which I profess, struggle and muddle along with.
Life is not easy, but it is not awful either, We all know that I have to cope with physical and mental health issues, but what do these look like under the wings of the God who says he cares for us like an Eagle cares for her young. Well, from where I am sitting, things still look pretty bleak and definitely shady and they are properly stinky like a flowering Titan Arum. But despite this dire appraisal I can honestly say that there is an abundance of Joy in my heart.
Yes. Even in amongst the tangle of lies that the godforsaken Depression Monkeys of Doom (DMoDs) constantly spit out in my head as they dance their whirling dervishes to the father of lies there is Joy. Not from my own conjuring, you understand, but simply because I am a daughter of the Most High God. Nothing can take THAT joy away from me. Admittedly on really bad days I struggle to connect with it, but most days I am able to find at least some of that Joy and be thankful that I am still alive and kicking.
Today was a good day. For many reasons. Not least of these was my having actually made it out of the house and to church on a Sunday morning for the first time since moving last November! And what a day! Eric D- was preaching and he was reminding us of that great Promise, not command, that you shall love the Lord your God with all your heart, with all of your mind, with all of your strength and with all of your soul, and, of course, you shall also love your neighbour as yourself. It was like a klaxon-call to the church, as Eric reminded us of the pure and simple fact that there has never ever been anyone quite like YOU before, and God pours out the whole of His Love over, into, through and around YOU: for everyone everywhere for eternity!
I know some of you might be thinking, what a crock of crap, but it isn't. It is a very simple and plain truth. There's nothing to argue against love. Love just simply IS. Love is love, is love is love.
God told Moses his name: I AM.
God IS. It's not a trick. It is a pure statement of truth. The whole of God's energy is Love.
God is LOVE.
All that God wants from me, you and anyone else is for us to accept this love, because it is given freely, it is there for you to take hold of and to love yourself and to love those around you and God would love it if you love God back, because just as energy (matter) never disappears neither does Love.
The young physicist Max Loughan says that God is the energy (that sustains the universe). I have long believed that quantum physics would help those of us with inquiring minds to develop new ways of connecting with the divine and relating to the cosmos.
It's no accident, methinks, that my love for everything in and on this little blue planet and beyond it has fuelled a lifelong passion to understand how it all fits together and how it all works - and believe me, I know only the smallest of fragments! (Though not for the want of trying!)
My life feels like it's on hold right now, "in a siding" as one fellow at church termed it this morning, but there is healing happening and I hope that once some of this mental fog is gone I'll see a bit more clearly and have brainspace to take up more studies...
I'm sorry that this is not a polished piece of blogging genius, but it is almost midnight on Sunday 21 May, but I just wanted to get some stuff out of my head.
Shalom
TL
Yay, you're blogging again! :)
ReplyDeleteWonderful words of truth and encouragement. X